Fighting back the urge to cry
sick of being so strong sick of always being wrong
this paint encases my mind smothering the monotonous grind
embrace the tears at night struggling to distinguish the right
we have lost our self's tonight
tears nudging behind my eyes remembering all the ridicules lies
promises of our ultimate fairy tale then emerged the ale
an inanimate object took over, the man i love couldn't stay sober
this man was my rock not some random cock
our happily ever after was taken we both spent too much time faken
i have lost my self with out him my balls bounce right off the rim
i can't make a shot for the life of me, why could he not see
put the glass down
throw the bottle on the ground!
no effort to get sober
so i tried to shake him up i packed MY cup, i fully relinquished my drinking
i wanted to save us from sinking, he pushed and shoved me this crazy need to feel above me
struggling to keep my self esteem alive i walked in to the bee hive
falsely called OUR home i never felt so alone, the silent knives stabbing all the passive grabbing
i had no idea what to do all i wanted was YOU
i fought for my soul but you were what made me feel whole
you turned my words around made me feel no taller then the ground and when i thought i couldn't feel any lower you still weren't striving to be sober
the arguments got worse all we did was curse, cursed each others families forgetting the common courtesies
you let me cry my self to sleep we were getting in too deep
i left you on the porch to cry swear i felt our relationship die
with my battered self esteem still tired to produce your dream went in to total panic mode
trying to carry the entire load got the car rolling despite my confidence was stolen
bought a bike trying to make us fit, of course i didn't get on it when every night you had a sonnet
immature, worthless, and lazy
i don't want to have your baby, remember that night it was an immense fight
"i don't want to breed with you!" what was i supposed to do?
You don't remember you were drunk.
i got to handle all the funk, you drank your self into a spectator left me as the only competitor
exhausted form trying to save a relationship that was dying
i couldn't take any more, you pushed me to the floor one last time i came to my feel calmly took my seat
let you degrade our relationship "you go ahead take another sip!" your friend alcohol is killing us
no need to make a fuss, you never hear a word i say, watching what you were fade away
thoughtful, sweet, and strong has turned in to hateful, weak, and wrong
you had a billion warnings i am packing up my things, can no longer take the beatings
only i know how much it stings
clueless as what to do with my life knowing i will never be your wife
alcohol took you away from me
why couldn't he see
put the glass down
throw the bottle on the ground
but the addiction took over
no effort to stay sober.
sick of being so strong sick of always being wrong
this paint encases my mind smothering the monotonous grind
embrace the tears at night struggling to distinguish the right
we have lost our self's tonight
tears nudging behind my eyes remembering all the ridicules lies
promises of our ultimate fairy tale then emerged the ale
an inanimate object took over, the man i love couldn't stay sober
this man was my rock not some random cock
our happily ever after was taken we both spent too much time faken
i have lost my self with out him my balls bounce right off the rim
i can't make a shot for the life of me, why could he not see
put the glass down
throw the bottle on the ground!
no effort to get sober
so i tried to shake him up i packed MY cup, i fully relinquished my drinking
i wanted to save us from sinking, he pushed and shoved me this crazy need to feel above me
struggling to keep my self esteem alive i walked in to the bee hive
falsely called OUR home i never felt so alone, the silent knives stabbing all the passive grabbing
i had no idea what to do all i wanted was YOU
i fought for my soul but you were what made me feel whole
you turned my words around made me feel no taller then the ground and when i thought i couldn't feel any lower you still weren't striving to be sober
the arguments got worse all we did was curse, cursed each others families forgetting the common courtesies
you let me cry my self to sleep we were getting in too deep
i left you on the porch to cry swear i felt our relationship die
with my battered self esteem still tired to produce your dream went in to total panic mode
trying to carry the entire load got the car rolling despite my confidence was stolen
bought a bike trying to make us fit, of course i didn't get on it when every night you had a sonnet
immature, worthless, and lazy
i don't want to have your baby, remember that night it was an immense fight
"i don't want to breed with you!" what was i supposed to do?
You don't remember you were drunk.
i got to handle all the funk, you drank your self into a spectator left me as the only competitor
exhausted form trying to save a relationship that was dying
i couldn't take any more, you pushed me to the floor one last time i came to my feel calmly took my seat
let you degrade our relationship "you go ahead take another sip!" your friend alcohol is killing us
no need to make a fuss, you never hear a word i say, watching what you were fade away
thoughtful, sweet, and strong has turned in to hateful, weak, and wrong
you had a billion warnings i am packing up my things, can no longer take the beatings
only i know how much it stings
clueless as what to do with my life knowing i will never be your wife
alcohol took you away from me
why couldn't he see
put the glass down
throw the bottle on the ground
but the addiction took over
no effort to stay sober.
